My Dog Oscar
A Blog Post
Dogs are the best companions any one can have. They give
you unconditional love, boost your ego and self-esteem by
hanging around you and making your feel wanted and important.
In the very early stages of their evolution, they learned
to live near humans, the most powerful species upon earth,
and form a strong and mutually beneficial relationship with
them. If they had our intelligence and awareness, perhaps
they would have exemplified and excelled in bhakti yoga
They make the best pets because they mirror human behavior
so much that they are always in sync with their masters.
If you are happy, they are happy. If you are depressed,
they become depressed. I also noticed that if you are disturbed,
angry or talking to someone loudly or animatedly, they just
walk away because they do not want to be a part of that
noise, agitation or negativity.
They usually hang around you when you are in a positive
mood, and withdraw if you are emotionally unstable. Since
they mirror your behavior as a part of their survival strategy,
you can also teach them gentle behavior by your own example.
I also believe mindfulness comes to them naturally because
their gaze never leaves you even if they are in a faraway
corner. It is not that all dogs are alike, but most dogs
are friendly and gentle when they are around humans, especially
those who take care of them.
I am writing about dogs, because I had a dog named Oscar
for 17 full years. He had to be euthanized few weeks ago
due to old age and deteriorating health. His death left
me with a lot of grief as well as guilt because I did not
know and I am still unsure whether I took the right decision
or should I have waited for some more months and let him
live. His death cleared any illusions I had about my ability
to deal with emotional and ambiguous situations or death
When he died before my eyes, I realized in an instant
how unprepared I was to face his death or his loss. It did
not occur to me until then how unknowingly I led myself
into a decision which was going to torment me for a long
time. The more I thought of him, the sadder and guilty I
became, guilty because the thought that I was in someway
responsible for his death due to euthanization kept gnawing
at me. Even now, although a few weeks passed away, my heart
becomes heavy at the thought that he passed away or he had
gone forever and I would never see him again alive.
For the last 17 years Oscar was always with me by my
side when I was writing, speaking, recording a podcast or
discussing an important topic with friends and family. He
was my silent companion and witness to all my conversations
and actions. I never ignored him either. I knew when he
was hungry, when he had a problem or discomfort or when
he wanted to go outside or when he needed me. And I never
felt it was a burden to serve him, feed him or help him.
I am sure he must have imbibed many good things from
me in all the years he was with us. Although in the last
few months of his life he had many old age ailments and
yet was struggling to be active and normal, I am happy that
he lived a pampered and comfortable life. Within my means
I provided him with the best of things a dog could have.
I am sure he earned a lot of good karma too with his gentle
and amiable nature. I hope he is somewhere in the universe
waiting for his rebirth and someday I will again meet him
in some form.